I just wanted to post this picture that Ben emailed... mainly so I could see him whenever I looked at our blog but also to share with everyone. This was taken when he was on his way into country a few weeks ago, he's sitting with his buddy Anderson that he actually went through EOD school with 2 years ago when Ben joined the Air Force. Anderson is from Minnesota so it's such a small world that they got deployed at the same time. I love Ben so much, I am so proud of him and I miss him like no other. He has made me the happiest I have ever been in the short amount of time that we have been married. This is by far the hardest and worse thing that has ever happened to me having him gone and I won't lie... I hate it. I hate the tears that are shed daily, I hate feeling so lonely and scared, and knowing that I still have 5 more months to go makes it even worse.
I don't know how people can deal with deployments for longer periods of time or more often then Ben has to go. But I look up to and admire those families. I know it's not an easy task being a solider and having to go off into the unknown and deal with all the crap they have to. But I also know that's it's not easy for the wife and kids that they left behind and some days I feel like our job here is harder. What is so crazy about the entire situation though is I wouldn't go back and change anything. To know that I love my husband and miss him is a confirmation that we were meant to be. To have to face each day as a new one, makes me stronger and more humble then I think I could ever be. And to be a Mom, a friend, a rock for my 4 kids is a blessing that I know I was meant to face and I know that even at our worse and even when we are having our hardest days that because we are together and a family we will be fine and that we are being watched over.
Ben is my best friend, my soul mate I love him so much and I can't wait for his return.
6 comments:
Isn't having a family to love just the best ever! I'm glad you're part of ours!
you are all in our thoughts and prayers- i know that you are both being watched over- i am so glad that ben is in your life and makes you sooo happy! on with the count down!!
it's neat to hear you say those things. It's kinda like how kids need to see their parents kiss, its good 4 me to hear how happy ben makes you and how much you love him. I'm sorry for ur tears shed and for my lack of comfort, but i too know your strong enough to handle this. I love you sis.
Our thoughts and prayers are always with you guys and your kids. I hope that the time goes by quickly for you! Love you guys!
If I wasn't medicated I'd be crying right now! I hope you keep your chin up and know that you are so lucky to be where you are right now. Ben is an awesome guy and he will come home soon! I hope you know you can call me whenever you need to for whatever you need at the time! I'm here for you! Stay strong and it'll be over with before you know it!
Our thoughts and prayers are with you, Tera. Our niece's husband (also named Ben)was on leave from Iraq and returned back there yesterday. His wife and little boy are having a tough time. You are amazing to take care of four, plus do all you do. You sound so happy, and we are so happy for you both
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